If that is what truly makes you feel happy and content, then smoke.  Everyone here is telling you, don't smoke...  smoking is stupid...  keep your quit...  don't do this - do that! 

Smoking.  Isn't it a great feeling?  Ahhhhh, I can remember it now.  Putting that cigarette to my mouth.  Sucking in a mouthful of smoke, filled with artificial flavors and poisons ranging from menthol to embalming fluid - animal vomit to tar, and many more poisons...  let's not forget nicotine.  The ultimate life controller.  Ah, yes. I can see how you missed all that.  Smoke it up Johnny, as they say... smoke'm if ya got’m!  Let the cycle begin! 

Morning wake up...  not because you really want to, but because your body is craving nicotine.  Waking up trying to clear out your lungs from the last 20-40 cigarettes you smoked the day before.  Hacking with such force at times, you swore to God a lung was going to come up.  Feeling lethargic because, let's face it, it zaps the life and energy out of you.  

So let's start the day there.  Not enjoying that?  It doesn't matter because you choose to let the demon control you.  You don't get a say on how you feel as long as you let him back into your life.  Within seconds the cycle begins again.  The cycle of being lied to and you being a puppet every 30 to 60 minutes...  estimated average.  Another thing to miss...  right? 🙄  So now, for the rest of the day, every time you.... 

DO ANYTHING...  you have to smoke.  When you allow the addiction to win you can't do anything without that useless paper cylinder packed with leaves and poisons.  Sometimes you really don't even want one.  It tells you that you do and has you believing that you'll be anxious if you don't get an extra fix in right now.  Which in return make you anxious, and there starts a lot of anxiety problems for some.  It's a vicious cycle.  Let's not forget the rapid pulse.  That's always a pleasant feeling...  Never feeling as if you can relax.  Let's also add in the smell that gets you uptight, you're always looking for a way to mask it, which makes you anxious again.  Or how about the ole chest pain.  The one that has you wondering if it's the "big one".  Again, that adds more anxiety.  Everything about smoking adds anxiety.  Do I have enough to get me through?  Can I smoke here?  What if I CAN'T smoke here?  Can the non smokers smell me?  How am I going to afford them? 

Crap, I forgot my cigarettes!  Remember that?  You thought your life was over.  So wound up and pissy that it didn't even occur to you that there is a convenience store on every corner.  You could just go buy another pack.  See?  It makes you stupid.  All that extra anxiety is what puts wear and tear on your heart, upping your chance of heart attack.  Phew!  I'm exhausted just thinking about everything it added.

So as I sit here with not one care or worry about smoking, I feel I in complete peace with myself.  No anxieties and no controlled feelings.  I keep plugging away at my ~ one day at a time ~ loving every new day, that much more.  It's peaceful here.  Realizing, they were right ... Smoking IS stupid! 

Keeping your quit IS a necessity for a better life. 

Things DO get better.  Let no excuse take YOUR quit.  I hope you make the best choice.

I know for me, it's smoke free!  🚭

Please don’t give up too easy.  It takes time. 

Now really, I don’t want you to smoke.  NOT AT ALL.  I’m also sure you don’t want to start at day one again.  

Stay strong friends!   Cathy